What Is Purpose?....

 I have always known there is more to life than meets the eye. Even as a child I nurtured an open mind about the esoteric phenomenon and the possibilities of life after death. I just had a 'feeling' back then, which I couldn't explain. Now I am convinced it was because I was young enough for my spirit to remind me often in subtle ways of my 'home', having not been in this physical world for very long.

I have a nurturing nature, and I treasure connecting with kindred souls, be they man or animal, however to this day I have always felt very much alone. When I say alone, I mean the feeling of being in a crowd, yet feeling a sort of solitude somehow. Not that I dislike this feeling. I guess it is because I have never truly opened myself up to be completely vulnerable, (except to a few beautiful women I treasure, who always seem to sense when there is imbalance within my realm). I am comfortable with this though. I am usually always the one busy listening to everyone else and assisting where I can, hence my occupation of social work/addictions/nursing. I care. I always have and I always will...

I usually keep to myself when I am struggling with an issue, yet I know that Spirit's embrace surrounds me and I, and you, are never alone. In fact, you would be surprised to learn how much assistance is available, and Spirit gives me the support and reassurance I crave when the need arises. Spirit never lets me down, even when I sometimes question my own truths and beliefs.

So, here I am – feeling stuck once again. I have a supportive husband, two gorgeous fluff balls, amongst other precious animals that live outdoors, and we own a picturesque farm and live in our dream home we had built a few years ago....and a most amazing beach is only a fifteen minute drive away. I honestly have it all and I'm so grateful.

I am also so fortunate to only be working part-time off the farm, while my husband works diligently many hours a week, successfully building a business through his admirable passion, determination and perseverance. I am so proud of him. He is such an inspiration and I very much appreciate that we are in a financial position where I don't need to be employed full-time, away from home. In fact, it is more lucrative for us that I work the farm. My chores for our own business are much more important to complete.

So why am I feeling stuck? I envy my husband, as I have also always longed to find my own passion that I could endeavour to grab by the horns and run with. One that would make a difference to people's lives in a positive way, whilst also owning my independence and substantially contributing to our finances. I would be completely motivated and diligent in my quest and would work night and day if need be. For years now I have sought this meaningful and prosperous project and still it continues to stay invisible. I know it's there, right in my reach. I can almost taste it!

However maybe, my purpose is to 'just be', radiating loving energy to the best of my intention and ability to all souls whom I come into contact with. Maybe my purpose is to care for, love and nurture the animals who find their way into my home. In other words, maybe I am already living my purpose, yet through yearning and reaching for something not included in my life plan, my eyes are too foggy to see clearly, to see the truth, hence not feeling completely satisfied within.

'Apparently', if you wish for something, wish it, then let it go and it will come – when the time is right. Or acceptance is always a grand word used often within spiritual laws. Accept where you are, and be grateful for all you have. From this stance your wishes become fulfilled. Or another insightful quote (from the law of attraction) is, live your life as though you already have your idea, your pay rise, your accomplished weight loss etc. Act as if and it will come!

Who knows what is truth and what isn't? Perhaps assorted truths are attracted by various different souls. We are all unique and individual after all (although all connected I have read time and time again).

 

I guess it comes down to mindfully and proactively 'being the best person you can be at any given moment' and continuously staying open to opportunities and surprises springing from left field that may present. There's always something around the corner that can change your life very quickly, such as a significant phone call. Keep your eye on the pie, however accept that if nothing comes of it, even though you truly attempt to reach your goal/desire, it's possibly not meant to be – or not yet anyway...Or perhaps a completely different and exciting road may appear and surprise you. One you would have never imagined in a million years! That's what makes this physical existence so unpredictable, exciting and often challenging at times - but wonderful too : )