All the farm chores are completed for the next little while. 'Allow yourself some time', I say to myself. 'You've been wanting to begin daily meditation again for so long. Sit. In the present. Be still, and know the farm won't crumble because you step out of your daily life for twenty minutes or so. Make a start, go on!', I tell myself. 'Yes, it seems a good time now'......
I make myself comfortable in my favorite room of the house, which basically tells my whole life story through photos, personal treasures, crystals, candles, letters, pictures on the walls etc. Once upon a time this room was my energy healing space. Sekhem Energy Healing to be exact, which is another passion of mine I have placed on the back-burner! The only difference now is the massage table is folded away and stored neatly underneath my beautiful, colorful couch, instead of being the centre piece of this, my sacred, space. The energy in the room remains lovely and welcoming, and I light a candle, sit on the floor cross legged, my palms facing upward on my knees, my back straight.
I focus on the candle flame, which begins to flicker, while I breathe in for four, then out for four counts, slowly quietening my body. I continue this for a minute or so, then close my eyes and visualise a beautiful, golden, universal light stream down from above, which flows into the crown of my head and downward all the way through my entire being, then out through my base chakra toward the centre of the earth. I can literally feel the subtle buzzing energy of this light as it encompasses me. It feels so invigorating, comforting and uplifting all at the same time. I continue to breathe deeply and slowly. I am definitely feeling more at peace now and I am amazed and pleased how quickly I sink into this wonderful state.
Thoughts begin to spasmodically sneak in from left field. I notice them, then purposefully shift my focus back to my breath. Suddenly, to my surprise, rituals I practised during my regular meditations in the past come easily to mind.
I silently ask Archangel Michael to please cut the invisible, energetic cords between myself and others I have been in contact with lately, which do not serve me anymore. I have in past meditations seen, through my mind's eye, many cords being cut at once upon my regular requests. Depending on the thickness (depth) and strength (significance) of the cords, sometimes scissors were used. Other times a stronger utensil, such as an axe was needed. Today I see long, swift swings from a machete, until I sense all the 'many' cords have become loose and disappear. I ask that all that I am carrying, that doesn't serve me anymore, be removed from my being and sent up into the universe to transform into love.
By now I feel my pulse has slowed right down and my breath is almost non existent. I am completely calm and 'in the moment', and my body feels so light, I can hardly sense it at all. It feels amazing....
I telepathically ask Spirit if I may receive healing and cleansing today wherever on my being I presently require it. 'May it be for my highest good and for Thy will', I pray. I also ask that beautiful love and light embrace my precious family, friends and animals in my care, here in the physical world, as well as in Spirit, and may the Angels hold them all in their arms, to love them, to keep them safe and well, and to heal them for their highest good. 'Please also blanket this wonderful world with peace and love, touching and reminding every single soul of what's important and what to let go of', I plead. I thank Spirit and once again focus on my breath......
I visualise an extravagant, beautifully detailed, golden door. Another ritual I often included in my past meditations. This door leads into the spirit world and each time I visit, I would have a different experience. It's been far too long time since I was last here...
On an out breath, I turn the handle and slowly open the heavy door. Now excitedly standing in the door way, I am surprised by quite a large crowd of people, yet I can't make out their faces. Just as they all seem to know each other, I'm sure I know them too! Everyone in the room is so familiar and it feels like I have just walked into my own surprise party, except no one is jumping out from hiding. There is an atmosphere of welcoming anticipation and love towards me and I feel completely safe and comfortable. The dim light in this location throws soft, crimson rays, yet there's no light as such. It just is, and it feels like we are all standing in a room, a room with no walls. No one is talking, only softly looking at me and smiling, whilst projecting a feeling of love and support, as though they are my greatest fans in the spirit world. They seem so very pleased to see me.
Suddenly, to my absolute delight, my father, who passed over in 2002, steps forward, out of the crowd towards me. Such a beautiful surprise! He is wearing a familiar, grey suit and presents younger than when he passed. He looks so wonderfully healthy and we instantly embrace. No words, just a raw, meaningful hug. After a while we separate, and through his expression, he assures me, although he likes to take a back seat, he is always with me, offering continued support and encouragement. He nods, as much as to affirm, I'm doing ok and to take each day as it comes. All is well.
Then, I feel something brush against my calves. I look down and immediately recognise my precious, beautiful, ginger cat, Oscar, whom I sadly needed to send on to the spirit world just over two years ago. It was one of the most difficult and devastating chapters of my journey thus far. I crouch down and lovingly stroke his beautiful, healthy, fluffy coat and he immediately jumps onto my thighs, as he always used to do. We would regularly and intensely embrace, linking souls. This embrace was no different. Oscar impressed upon me how well he now feels and that he is never far away. Answering my continued question I have pondered over the last couple of years, he assures me, when it is my time to cross over, we will be together again, as well as the rest of the furry family that have moved on from the physical. I cannot rightly express in words how overwhelmed with love and relief I feel and how fortunate I am to have this experience.
Suddenly, much to my disappointment, I am yanked back into the room by a loud, annoying noise. My mobile phone is ringing! 'Damn it, I didn't think to turn it off!' I curse. It's not very enjoyable to be in a state of complete peace, and having the pleasure of communicating with deceased love ones, to suddenly find yourself pulled back into the physical within a blink of an eye.
I allow my mobile to ring out and I once again close my eyes and take some deep breaths. My spiritual fan club has departed, the golden door is closed. I let myself quieten once more, so as to make the transition back to normal breathing a little easier than it was, however it's too late. I am back, back in my world, back to reality, back to my life as I know it. But I feel more at peace in general and am filled with so much gratitude for the wonderful time I have been able to enjoy with loved ones, whom I love and miss so dearly. I quietly thank them for visiting my meditation and I assure them, I will return soon. I also thank Spirit for all intervention and ask to be used where I may 'serve' best. I will trust and place my journey in Spirit's capable and wise hands.
Having not had any concept of time during my meditation, I check the clock and realise I have been in a blissful state fore three quarters of an hour. I suddenly remember I always used to set an intention for the length of my meditations by asking Spirit to please let me know when to ease myself back to the physical. Maybe that's why my mobile rang. I could have easily and happily sat there all afternoon! However my beautiful rescue horse, Sky, will be looking for his lunch feed by now. It's time for me to get back out onto the farm to complete my chores. With a renewed spring in my step and a content knowing that I am never alone and ever so loved, I continue my day and look forward to my next 'me time'.
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